Mail excerpt

E-mailing a friend these words flew out of my hands and on to the keyboard, they seem accurate at the moment.

Keeping busy is a way of handling all sorts of things.
I see it as novocaine for the soul, it is needed, it is good, I am going through a similar phase.
Let us enjoy the night from which at the end we retrieve our souls from the ashtrays.
Let us enjoy the nights which lead the grey mornings on to sunny bright days.
Let us enjoy life under the sun, the stars, and the moon.
Let us enjoy the frienships and the worth that they provide.
Let us heal our hearts.
Let us dance away the rain.

Old topics new times

A few years ago I set on a crusade to understand human nature, through diverse weapons. Having put that quest in suspens I found myself equiped with new tools new experience to try it. I am going through a revival phase, but not all of the recent past was bad, striking the balance and growing stronger is the challenge. Reculler pour mieux Sauter? ou Sauter dans le vide directement?

That is the question: Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;

Control

Along the lines of the social punishment idea I am becoming aware of one extra notion. In each interaction in each definition, in each interface there is the idea and the notion of control. An interface provides a known way to be controlled. In any of the interactions that happen after the publication, actions are forced upon you. So you just transition from one source of control to the other. Not pleasent, but certainly being aware of it makes it easier to control.

Radical Changes

Summer nights always have something special, people meet, people talk, people bond and become friends. It is as if the night and the behaviours that are expected are in effect unifying. Human nature becomes exposed under a new light, or lack thereof. The rules of engagment in such an arena are simple. Come as you are and as you want to be. All sins can be forgiven, all dreams re-enacted, all lines of thought posible, the night brings the freedom that the light of day will never allow. In the dark no one juges you, in the dark there is no need to hide, you are hidden in plain sight.

Follow your desire, follow your instict, dance and be true to yourself. Look deep inside of you and your life will re-surface, there are few things better than being united with yourself, to being united with your own imperfections, to acknowledge the past and look tothe future with bright eyes. To feel the chance of living your dreams. To feel the chance of dreaming again.