Well the day was slow to say the least....
The results are looking promissing but I am not sure of their actual validity. We shall see what happens in between... they show hints... as to those hints being enough that is another story. but who knows...

Research is like that I guess... you just get hints to pick up on....

Any how the week-end has landed and as usual i have no clue of what will happen who nows... hopefully something exciting....

Mood: average who knows... Anger still inside as no news have arrived... just have to bear with it I guess....

Woke up early... arrived early at the office. Replied some e-mails started working... Waht can I say things are going well.

Re-running the method as it does have a hint of promise.

Watched American beauty yesterday. What can I say besides the fact that its a great film.

I have my girlfriend to thank for the great state I am now in.

Mood: up like the foam on the capuccino sitting on my desk.

Yesterday I saw my girlfriend and my whole outlook on life changed. She hasthat effect on me. It was great being with her again after a week. Absolute addiction is what I must have. I tried to work a bit yesterday night but it did not work... was too tired I guess.

The morning was ok even if I was waken up by one of the cleaning ladies thinking my room was empty trying to bring a pillow. I should havetaped the conversation cause it should have been pretty funny.

Mood: a lot better as I may have some results.

More friends helped me today. Its nice to feel them there and to get help when Juan is down, pun intended.

Thanks to all of you I am disapearing off home to partially un-pack hopefully things will go well in the next few days...

The week-end has been odd to say the least.
Started with hanging out on the friday and all the way to Sunday with Thrasos and Harry until they left. Went to Chris house cooked saw Lock Stock... it was a nice evening in all in all.

On the unspeakable end things are looking better. Old aquantances are comming to the recue it is nice to gel help from people. My decission is now very clear...

I have missed my girlfriend through out the whole adventure. What can I do she is busy... I moved to a new room yesterday. Same halls... however this kitchen is great. Have to post some pictures when I have the time.

This week-end has been a very sad time. The same old sadness has resurfaced. I need to be loved and cared for. I guess we all its just a question of dropping the barriers an getting on with it.....

Things are looking up on one side. On the others I hope too.

Mood: down but something is going on which I like.....

Its weird how the pattern of missery repeats itself again and again.

• Monday: not too good but not to bad


• Tuesday: starts fine. Undesired intereaction -> fridge feeling


• Wendesday: Absolute shit. I can't even think clear


• Thursday: Morning rock bottom. After prayer normally things look up by the evening everything is great.


• Friday: Life is wonderful as I work


• Saturday: Time for my-self. Time for others


• Sunday: oups have to do lots of things.... but I just don't do them

Why is is always the same? Well I have made a decission and make a move on it. I should have done it earlier but I guess I did not have the energy for.

I am feeling a lot better now. I doubt it was the cumin in yesterdays rice in Thrasos kitchen. They are leaving for the holiday. Good holiday and luck to them.

Doors have closed. Well at least this time I dared to knock on them. I guess I just have to try harder yet now the energy is not there. Its simply not there. Have to do quite a few things today so I will deffinetly carry on this path to perdition being absolutely exausted. I don't know what to do... But somewhere deep down I know things will be allright.

Mood: down relly deep down...