Yesterday was a weird night to say the least. Met with a friend... had a parking ticket and t hen ended up being completely destroyed for the rest of the night. Woke up early then went to bed again. My parents have decided to shorten their holiday.... fair enough I shall stay here and leave by plane... well it is all drawing to an end and who knows what it will be like.

Just now mental emptyness and little more... I don't know I used to enjoy hangover mornings.I guess I am getting old. I really don't know when it started.

I can not believe my life at the moment. I am seating in a room at a conference sourounded by other fellow geeks. Yesterday, or rather this morning I got to bed at 6:30.... proper... nice and proper. There were people in worse circumstances, more work to do... more drunk than me yesterday but for a second as we spent the whole night in the streets something changed. I am also alien here. I also want to disect the way people live, learn and die here. It is funny but it is so. From yesterday onwards I do not belong anywhere. Besides the only interview I had has just sent me a rejection. Its the first time I have to admit but it doesn't feel as bad as I thought.

What does feel bad is my now former, even if the thought kills me, girlfriend. I hav e to admit that she is the wiser of us. But something deep down prevents me from letting her go. I don't know where to stand my life has done a full 360 in the space of a month. All for a good cause though all for a good cause.

FESTES DE NULES AMUUUUUUNT