Friday, July 16, 2004

What can I say. Its pissing down with rain. We have some beer for after lunch in the office. And I am feeling fine. Its weird how spending time with my girlfriend just makes me feel a whole lot better. She is busy now but she has decided to spend more time with me this is brilliant. I am so glad things are going so well.

Mood: Melancolic but I guess its because of the rain.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

Its weird things are draging a bit on. I am feeling fine. No problems as such its just the patience I guess. That is what I have to have. Patience and that is it. It will all come out ok. Tranquility will just flow as the things that have to fll in place do fall in place. It is just weird how little I care about the position I am in now. Its as if my life was nothing but a film. A film that I am seing. The travel blues has hit me and that does hurt.

Whenever I am on the edge of moving it feels bad. It feels very bad. Guess I will just have to take a deep breath jump in the emptyness of life and hope to land on my own two feet. Wont be the first time and it wont be the last either. Just have to put up with it. And with the noise that is around me to.

Mood: melancolic I guess.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

The day started late very late as I could not drag my-self out of bed. In fact I hit the office at around 12. Late even for me.

I have had a lot of time to think lately and the decission is made even clearer by al means. I had this time someone head-hunting "sort-of" me. It feels great. Lets see what it end up being. Could be quite interesting.

Lets hope it all turns out for the best. In fact I know things will go well its just a question of time.

Mood: very good... very good.

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Doors open or at least people answer after nocking on them... opening takes work... that is the plan for the night. Just the work. But that is fine because I enjoy it. The working bit is the one I like. Its the one I am good at.

Mood: lets kick some ass.
Advance is slow and seldom. Waht can I do but wait. Someone knocked onthe door but I wasn't there to answer. That just pisses me off. What can I say it makes things simple if you open the door. But if you are not in its not really your fault.

Lets hope it all goes for the best.

Mood: good... very good as it is everytime I see my girlfriend.

Monday, July 12, 2004

The morning is grey and cold but the mood is good. Last night ended up falling asleep wilst watching casablanca. Amazing movie.

Well lets get to work there is a lot to be done today.

Mood: good very good

Sunday, July 11, 2004

Its Sunday morning i have just left the noisiest bar in Birmingham and my ears are still resonating with the strident sound that warns you of deafness in old age. I have left my friends there because I was just too nackered.

In fact I am trying to draw away from them trying to make the final brech as easy as posible. My decission has been taken and its not the first time that I have done so. It just hurts but as brel said... We don't forget anything we just get used to it. My girlfriend is extremely suportive but I know it not easy for her either. She is in a similar situation at the end of the day. I just hope everything goes fine in the end but in life you never know.

Mood: exausted but fine... the day was nice..