Today was a mixed morning of emotions as the news cam in as phone calls through my late sleep. My girlfriend, with whom I have just spent a week-end auto-trader in hand hunting in the west midlands for a car, used the same car for the first time to get to her job somewhere on the outskirts of Leicester. I was relieved and filled with pride. Jolie, as we have decide to call the car, will be supplying a lot of freedom and endless hours of fun in the few months to be. Having a car is always great even if the polute the shit out of the planet.

The later phone call put hings into alot of perspective. My uncle Paco the baker has died. I saw him this christmass for Christmass eve and Christmass lunch and never thought that it would be the last time I would have seen him.
What discusts me the more is the fact that I am stuck in the UK and wont be able to make it even for the funeral. He was a good man, perhaps one of the most solid people I have meet. He went through life always trying to do what is right and working hard. A lesson in humility and simplicity for everyone that looked or interacted with him. I will remember him in my heart forever and shall say see you later to him. I just feel bad for his closest family and all the people that knew him in the town, most of them will be attending the funeral and I am sure they will not all fit in the church.

Thank you Paco for all you knowledge and care. For the endless hours of always enriching conversation. I will miss you greatly. To those who read this if you are a beliver spare a prayer for him if not spare a thought. A good man has left us today and his memory and the way he touched the lifes of the people around him will always be remembered.

Farewell Paco farewell and thank you for everything.

Mid afternoon the day before I go back to work again and I can not prevent to think back on the holidays just passed. Happines lies in the simple things. In a smile in a caress in just being relaxed and not worrying about everyday things.

The time in Florence and Roma was truly magical, and having my girl-friend as a guide was even better. The pictures look great but its the magic that is present in those cities that will even last forever. Florence was even better as I managed to go back after now 10 years. I always wanted but never though so it would be so great to be back.

I always enjoyed traveling but to travel with her just made the experience unique. Sharing all this beauty makes it even better. Oh blessed is every second that I sepnd with her. Blessed is her smile and her lovely face.
It wont be a few days before I see her again but just want to see her every second and spend all the possible time with her. Hopefully it wont be long. I can just wish her now that things will be good and that everything will be fine and that she will find a good job. Life can be weird at times at great at others. I just wish for the best.

What can I say the term is drawing to an end and I haven't done half of the stuff that i was supossed to do.

However i am finding my-self growing in different dimensions one of them in my relationship the other in the relevance of my work.

I am happy now with the way things are and it just feels like it could be so for a long long while. I have forgotten some friends or rather forgotten to get in touch with them but hopefully things will normalise in a few months if not weeks. Once the masters is out of the way I am aiming to kick some ass.

Some serious ass.

In this life we meet a lot of people. Some we find attractive. Some we enjoy their company because of similarities in character or point of view. Others inspire us. Others feel inspired by us. Some teach us things. To some we teach things. Some bring the best in ourselves, allowing us to relax to be ourselves, to tackle the things that we don't want to do in the most simple way. With some we can talk for hours and the time that we spend toghether flies in a never useless conversation.

But to find one person that fits all of the above, and to love that person, and to feel loved by them is a completely different thing. Happynes lies there in. Happyness through a completness that can not be understood just experienced. Finding perfection in our inperfect world that is what we are after and that is what I have found.

I feel truly blessed and I begin to feel what it is to be living if only a small part if only something minimal that matters a lot.

This is just a glimps of what I feel with my girlfriend I just hope she feels half the same...

My girlfriend left my side a few hours ago and I just comatosed on my sofa until now. Catching up on the lack of sleep from the week I guess. Now its that moment of truth in which I have to confron my masters thesis do those corrections that simply wont be there on time.

There always has to be an element of discontent in my life I guess these corrections are it. If it wasn't for them life would be perfect right now. Well that is what I always think, yet it wouldn't be like that, it just wouldn't, something else would.

I have to admit the sleep deprivation due to my new job is the thing that I am finding the most interesting to explore on a daily basis. The text message poetry taht I am exanging with my girl friend is an element of our relationship that helps me endure the sleep deprived comute in the mornings.

My girlfriend came round to visit me yesterday. It was good to show her where I live and some of my friends. It felt like her place was really there. Showed her the Richmond riverside too. It just felt so good walking by with her. Now she is back up there in BrummyLand. We both hate that place. I just hope that things will be ok and that she will be able to relocate to London.

I can not wait for us to live toghether if that is what shall happen. I was a bit worried at first she may not find my friends ok. But after Friday night I feel resure she will fit right into my group of friends here.

I can not believe my luck and the happiness that she brings to my life. Its just a magical feeling. Oh that lovely feeling again....

The pleasure of enjoying ones work can only be surpassed by the pleasure of feeling loved. How blessed am I now that I have both? I do not know but it rates pretty high up there.